Weird statement huh?
Let me clarify what is meant by that statement. I’ve been on and off the diet wagon for years! I’m tired of getting on it, just to fall or jump off later. So, I’m not going to get back on. I’m gonna let it pass me by and keep on going to its destination.
Why am I doing this? Because I don’t necessarily want to go where it’s headed. My journey is my own, and I will forge my own path! I have to work this out for myself. Now, that doesn’t mean that I won’t need help along the way. Encouragement, admonishment, etc. The last time I was on this journey, I tried to lose weight too fast and it cost me. I was happy with the loss, but my body basically gave me the middle finger. My heart wasn’t happy with the sudden changes and it let me know. It took a few months and 2 cardioversions to get over that hump. Since then, I have let my self-pity and depression take over my willpower.
Let’s talk about what happens when you give up….YOU GAIN A LOT OF WEIGHT!! When I stopped eating right and exercising, I had lost about 50lbs. In the year since I gained 75-80lbs. Yeah…it sucked. Of course, what do you expect to happen when all you do is eat and lay in bed. It’s not rocket surgery or brain science people!!
Now let’s talk about the toll it took on my body. Stupid high blood pressure (190/130 avg), constant pain, headaches all the time, stomach issues, eyesight issues…the list could go on. What really made me realize the enormity of it (nothing like turning a blind eye to all the other things) was when I started having major issues with personal hygiene. Yeah, when it is a chore to take a shower and to clean yourself you know there is a problem. Yup…its embarrassing!!! Downright humiliating, and that was just the thought of having to have help to do theses things. I’m 42, I shouldn’t have to have help with my daily hygienic needs.
So here we are. I have been eating healthy and walking for about a month now. I have lost about 35lbs and feeling much better. Not going to push it too hard, but I am going to work. I don’t want a repeat of what happened last year. It was a pain in the rear and it cost me not only health wise, but also monetarily.
What does that mean? eat healthy and exercise. Cutting back on calories and putting in work to regain my health and strength. While I would love to do this in 9 months, I realize that it will be a long process. Yes, there will be ups and downs. I will fall, and I will get back up. Remember, I’m forging my own trail, not walking down a smooth road.
So, see ya wagon!! Have a safe trip to your destination, I’m going my own way, I can use the exercise!